Hi everyone, I’m writing this with a heavy heart because I’ve hit rock bottom, and I don’t know where else to turn. My name is Serhio, I’m 32 years old, and gambling has completely taken over my life. Over the past three years, I’ve lost nearly $50,000, mostly at Tropicana. It feels like my entire life is crumbling around me.
It all started innocently. I went to the casino with friends for fun, and I remember the adrenaline rush of hitting a jackpot early on. That moment hooked me. I kept going back, thinking I could replicate that feeling. I started betting $50, then $100, then $500 at a time. At first, I’d win occasionally, which only fed the illusion that I was in control.
But then the losses started piling up. I kept telling myself, “Just one more spin, one more hand, and I’ll win it all back.” Spoiler alert: I didn’t. Instead, I lost more than I ever thought possible. I maxed out my credit cards, borrowed money from family and friends under false pretenses, and even dipped into my savings — money I’d set aside for a down payment on a house. Now, I’ve got nothing to show for it except sleepless nights and overwhelming guilt.
The worst part? I’ve hurt the people I love the most. My girlfriend found out about the debt, and we’ve been fighting non-stop. She’s threatened to leave if I don’t get my act together. I can’t blame her — I’ve lied to her so many times about where the money was going. My family doesn’t know the full extent of my problem, but I’m sure they suspect something.
I’ve tried to quit on my own. I’ve deleted the casino apps, sworn off going to Stake, and promised myself that I’d stop. But every time I get paid, the cycle starts again. The craving, the “just one more try” mentality, and then the inevitable loss.
I’m scared. Scared that I’ll never be able to stop, that I’ll lose everyone and everything I care about. I know I need help, but I don’t even know where to start.
Have any of you been through something similar? How did you break free from the grip of gambling? Are there specific programs, resources, or strategies that worked for you? I feel like I’m drowning, and I’m desperate for any advice or support you can offer.
Thanks for reading. Even just sharing this feels like a small step forward.